hr ni hr 2nd iium invitational taekwondo tournament. macam2 jd....bout chart ad masalah...ni sume salah si tukang buat bout chart...keje mau cepat je..ptt mula kol 8.30 pg end up mula dlm kol 11 pg.org maen kategori laen dlm bout chart kategori laen...camne tuh????
tyme open ceremony lak, ad la mamat POYO muke cam 'sammy' ni bising2 lak...kalau aq ar,secara logiknye, w/pun bengang program start lambat, aq tau ar nk jg hati org tuan rumah tournament...si POYO tersebut, tnp rse bersalah berkata dgn KUATNYE: "eleh, kate start kol 8, ni da nk tgh hr bru nk start"...aq cam malu tp rse nk sumbat je board team dia (UniSZA) lam mulut dia..kasi koyak sket mulot tu!!!mampus la ko!!aq tepok tgn ar klu ko sawan dlm ring!!!
then, tyme jg ring...ring laen gne ESS, tp yg aq jg ni gune manual..serabut kepala aq...mamat2 DEGIL LAGI BEBAL dr team ANGKATAN TENTERA MALAYSIA (ATM), cam x phm2 bhs ble org srh diri jaoh2 dr ring sbb ganggu refrees, committees and team medic( in case of emergency) nk wat keje...nyemak taw tak??!! bengong mu!!kwn aq yg ngadu kt aq tp aq lak yg bengang..emo.it was a bad thing tht i should had had control.
lepas tu, tyme aq kurang emo, aq tny bdk tkd ni asal@camne dia leh kalah, pastu dia terdiam dgr pertanyaan aq tuh,thn, membe aq ckp:"ko ni, jgn ar tny dia soalan tu, kecik ati dia". statement membe aq tu wat aq paranoid sbb aq terpikir,mungkinkah dia kecik ati???aq tetibe rse bersalah yg amat tp aq x brani mtk maaf sbb bdk tu jns yg ckp kasar2...emo lagi.it was a bad thing tht i shouldn't say.
aq emo-------------------aq paranoid
aq marah dgn diri aq sbb aq x leh kawal perasaan marah..aq x prl nk emo sgt2 pown dgn ATM nyemak bengong tu..tp aq marah gak...dasar baran!!!!...ko mmg pemarah ziha
aq rse bersalah sekiranye bdk tkd tu mmg btol2 kecik ati sbb aq x mean it in a bad way...aq tny sbb aq concern...terase bersalah!!!!...ko mmg negative-minded ziha
equation: emo + paranoid = feeling down
aq x se'happy' cam selalu...i heal stage by stage this night...aq start senyum and gelak ringan2.pastu gelak2 ngan bdk tkd uia kuantan kt hs cafe.pastu singgah cafe mahallah.chaa bli banana shake. tyme nk byr,tetiba chaa nk cheese samosa.pak cik jual samosa dgn baik hati bg free je dua bungkus murtabak kt aq and chaa...da bayar sume, tetiba dia lalu antara aq and chaa dan bkk peti ais.dia bg aq the last banana shake...katanye:"nah, ambik la,bawak balik, pak cik bg free"..aq tergamam,tersentak seketika.hati aq terharu sbb pak cik tu mmg slalu bg makanan or minuman free kt chaa and her gang.that tyme, it was my turn, my moment of gratefulness.aq bergerak kuar smbl menahan air mata...aq down sgt td,but thn, someone buat aq terharu sgt...it was the best moment for today!!!
