finished

"finally"

that's all i can say

that's what i want to say.

i'm done

tired but it's all worth

worth for what i've done.

hope

for good thing to happen

feels like clinging to a rope.

pray

glad for the strength

not wanting to go astray.

FINISHED

all the hard work

it's all finished.

relief. that's what i feel right now. at least for the time being. sleepless night is over. at least for the time being. aching body, painful. jammed brain, tired. blurry vision, sleepy. they're still hugging, holding me tightly, not wanting to let me go. but that's okay. cause everything, every work,  every assignment is done. finished.

p/s: listening to yuna ito's precious..nice one! 

i got spammed!!!!

damn it...bullshit...asshole....aaaaaargh!!!!!!!!!!!!
sape nye keje wat gini kt aq???
monyet tol...hanjing....siot...cilakak!!!!!
huhu...nyesal aq g tekan link tu...
naive tol aq ni...xtaw la plak bnd tu spam je
kuar da bnd2 x senonoh...
yg x best...cam aq plak yg send bnd2 tuh...huhu...
sedeyh...tercemar nme baek aq...
ToT....


sori korg klu dpt bnd tu dr aq...bkn aq yg wat...aq x bersalah...aq xtaw
sedeyh....aq da deactivate da pown fb aq....
cam haram tol...huhu

nape aq 'allergic' nk pggl org laki abg??

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aq ni xleh ar nk pggl org laki ngan panggilan 'abg'
rse geli..xtau nape rse geli...
at least ar, klu nk gak aq pggl org tu abg,
at least umo dia sme ngan abg 2nd aq
klu x..jgn hrp...berat beno mulot ni nk nyebut nye



gambar sekadar hiasan yerr...
obviously bkn aq dlm gamba ni...
(aq perempuan)
















tp...x bermaksud aq x respect org tu..
respect just aq lg comfortable pggl dia gne name je
reason(s) dia aq xtau maybe:

1. aq da ad 2 org abg...jd x terasa nk tmbh lg sorg (x msk akal tol alasan ni)
2. abg aq yg 2nd pown aq x pggl abg (pelik lak klu aq tetiba pggl dia abg)

certain2 org je yg aq pggl gne pggln abg

dan slalunye org yg lg tue dr abg 2nd aq

tu pown ad gak yg aq x pggl abg...

aq bkn nk kurang ajar...tp da nature aq cam tu...

is it bad?

sorry, but i can't...

a story about a male and female who happened to know each other through a friend. the male likes the female but the female likes someone else and she just want to remain as friends with the male...one day, he sends a message to the female...they text each other and the texting goes along well until he finally asks...

male:    suke warne ape ek?

female: ske warne biru,ijau,oren, itam putih...nape?

male:    just nk tny...hehe...abg nk berkawan n berkenalan boleh? sudi x nie?

more than half an hour later...

male:    marah ke?

female: erm...x marah...x tau nk cakap cane...honestly, x nk ad pape commitment ad ngan sape2...abg faham              

            kn? myb abg deserve org yg lg baek...

male:    it's okay...sekurang-kurangnye ckp jujur ngan abg..abg phm...sorry ganggu study...

what would you do if you were in her shoes? would you rather lie or tell the truth? the truth is ugly and hurtful but lie is uglier and worse...

i hear

what he says, what i say

what she says, what you say

what they say, what we all say

it can't be stopped

we're talking, we're laughing

we say and shout it all out

love, joy, reliefs

hate, anger, griefs

who says perfect is perfect

the defect is being perfect itself

we're human, only human

i've heard it all

i know because i'm here.

salam...

lama sgt x update belog ni

maka entry kali ni sgt random

it was smth i did last year...

Time had stopped in memories

The present time starts to leave me behind

I’m living in the past inside the memories

Time passed by counting the days.

The time that had stopped

However it seems to moving on again

Just all the things I don’t want to forget

They are replayed in my mind.

Will you still smile at me?

I can’t ask you even though I want to

Can I look at you from afar and like you?

I’m okay even if it’s unrequited.

Those words still remain within me

It’s painful to think about it but do you know?

Those hurtful words you said to me

Enough to bring me into tear.

it was the best moment for today!!!

hr ni hr 2nd iium invitational taekwondo tournament. macam2 jd....bout chart ad masalah...ni sume salah si tukang buat bout chart...keje mau cepat je..ptt mula kol 8.30 pg end up mula dlm kol 11 pg.org maen kategori laen dlm bout chart kategori laen...camne tuh????

tyme open ceremony lak, ad la mamat POYO muke cam 'sammy' ni bising2 lak...kalau aq ar,secara logiknye, w/pun  bengang program start lambat, aq tau ar nk jg hati org tuan rumah tournament...si POYO tersebut, tnp rse bersalah berkata dgn KUATNYE: "eleh, kate start kol 8, ni da nk tgh hr bru nk start"...aq cam malu tp rse nk sumbat je board team dia (UniSZA) lam mulut dia..kasi koyak sket mulot tu!!!mampus la ko!!aq tepok tgn ar klu ko sawan dlm ring!!!

then, tyme jg ring...ring laen gne ESS, tp yg aq jg ni gune manual..serabut kepala aq...mamat2 DEGIL LAGI BEBAL dr team ANGKATAN TENTERA MALAYSIA (ATM), cam x phm2 bhs ble org srh diri jaoh2 dr ring sbb ganggu refrees, committees and team medic( in case of emergency) nk wat keje...nyemak taw tak??!! bengong mu!!kwn aq yg ngadu kt aq tp aq lak yg bengang..emo.it was a bad thing tht i should had had control.

lepas tu, tyme aq kurang emo, aq tny bdk tkd ni asal@camne dia leh kalah, pastu dia terdiam dgr pertanyaan aq tuh,thn, membe aq ckp:"ko ni, jgn ar tny dia soalan tu, kecik ati dia". statement membe aq tu wat aq paranoid sbb aq terpikir,mungkinkah dia kecik ati???aq tetibe rse bersalah yg amat tp aq x brani mtk maaf sbb bdk tu jns yg ckp kasar2...emo lagi.it was a bad thing tht i shouldn't say.

aq emo-------------------aq  paranoid

aq marah dgn diri aq sbb aq x leh kawal perasaan marah..aq x prl nk emo sgt2 pown dgn ATM nyemak bengong tu..tp aq marah gak...dasar baran!!!!...ko mmg pemarah ziha

aq rse bersalah sekiranye bdk tkd tu mmg btol2 kecik ati sbb aq x mean it in a bad way...aq tny sbb aq concern...terase bersalah!!!!...ko mmg negative-minded ziha

equation:       emo + paranoid = feeling down

aq x se'happy' cam selalu...i heal stage by stage this night...aq start senyum and gelak ringan2.pastu gelak2 ngan bdk tkd uia kuantan kt hs cafe.pastu singgah cafe mahallah.chaa bli banana shake. tyme  nk byr,tetiba chaa nk cheese samosa.pak cik jual samosa dgn baik hati bg free je dua bungkus murtabak kt aq and chaa...da bayar sume, tetiba dia lalu antara aq and chaa dan bkk peti ais.dia bg aq the last banana shake...katanye:"nah, ambik la,bawak balik, pak cik bg free"..aq tergamam,tersentak seketika.hati aq terharu sbb pak cik tu mmg slalu bg makanan or minuman free kt chaa and her gang.that tyme, it was my turn, my moment of gratefulness.aq bergerak kuar smbl menahan air mata...aq down sgt td,but thn, someone buat aq terharu sgt...it was the best moment for today!!!